Manifestation
Disclaimer: I acknowledge my privilege to be able to leave my job without an immediate replacement for lost income. I have had many advantages in my life that have brought me to this point.
The heart’s desires can’t be realized if the desires can’t be expressed clearly and concisely. I have learned this lesson the hard way many times. Until I knew what I wanted, no amount of verbal or mental manifestation techniques could bring my desires into the real world. By clearly defining why and thus realizing what I truly wanted, I was recently able to make a strong desire of mine a reality: I quit my job.
Meditation and journaling helped me access my magic to recognize five key reasons why I wanted to leave my job. I didn’t enjoy my job anymore, and the lack of fulfillment was taking a toll on my mental health. I wanted time not dedicated to my full-time job or side hustle (my freelance writing). The pandemic had inflated the economy so much that my job wasn’t sufficient financially. I needed the motivation of relying on my freelance writing to make me grow my business. And finally, I needed the flexibility of remote work to help my husband manage his auto-immune disease.
Armed with these core truths, I turned inward to follow them towards my true desire. I didn’t just want to leave my job, I wanted to step into a career I’d been shying away from my entire life. A career that had always suited me, but that I wasn’t ready for before this moment. No wonder I never became an author despite finishing three novels and continually querying for two years. I was out of touch with myself and my magic. I had to be honest and open before I could finally take that much-needed step forward.
It took me eight months from the first clear thought - I want to leave my job - to actually making it happen. Thinking back on it, that wasn’t very long at all. But every stage felt like one step forward and two steps back. I had to try and fail at many smaller steps before I was finally ready mentally and spiritually to take the big step. Big magic like manifestation will always be hard. That’s what makes it worth it.
